Kushi

my world .. is this world.. 

where did my darling go..

I hear her ... out there ...

can't find her...behind any door..

she lives on .. but doesn't.. 

will see her.. no more..

will feel her within.. way more

Aayinaa

Kuch aise sitaarein hain 

(there are some stars..)

Jinhe apne chamak ki andaz nahi..

(who do not know their own brightness..)

Mein tho hu sirf ek ainaa

(I am but a mirror..)

Mera farz mujhe nibhaane dho

(let me do my duty..)

Dikhaoo tujhe tere farishte wali par

(let me show you your angelic wings..)

Sunaoo tujhe tere udaan ki leher

(let me narrate the waves of your flight..)

Bataoo tujhe tere chamak ki andaaz

(let me tell you about the glow in your being..)

akhela

Akele raathon mein..

adhoori mulakhaaton mein..

naa kho jaayo is pal ki kyu mein..

khudoh inn mein.. jeelo...bhuno ek kahaani..

tum ho na ho

khoya ghaliyon ki .. sothe rasthon mein..
bheegi shaakon ki.. namm pathon mein..
subah ki kirno mein.. hawaa ki mausiki mein
bandh aakhon mein,.. khilte hue khwaabon mein.. 
rukhi si pal-ot mein.. dheemi saans mein..
doonda hu tujhe mein.. dhoori ki deewana pan mein.. 

par pau tho sirf tumhe mere aks ki adhoora pan mein .. 
raat ki bedaari mein .. akela hone ki tanhaayion mein.. 

darde dil ki aajizi mein.. faqiid hone ki aans mein..

bemukaam bhatakthe guzhaarein hum.. 

bavafaa phir bhi hammare duniya ki..

qaul ke hai ghulaam -- tum ho na ho...

re-universe

a girl from  - half the world away.. 

smile once - takes my breath away.. 

my nights - she holds a certain sway.. 

damn right - lights them bright as day..

she tells me - the kid in her lives..

shows up - in all the joy she gives..

signs off - lulls me back to little memes.. 

back in - to brighten up my dreams.. 

sudur

Rang zindagi ke.. raat chu gaye..

aakh khul gaye tho - khwaab ghum gaye.. 

mud ke dekha tho - sahil nikhal gaya.. 

manzil hai kahaa.. sochthe reh gaya.. 

kuch the jo sapnein - jaane kahaa phisal gaye.. 

ab tho bin manzil bhatak the phir rahe.. 

mashal ki hai bhaari zimeendaari.. 

bina dil mein chingaari.. kaise nibhaye.. 

 

To be a dad

 To all the daddies with little girls who aren't old enough yet to ask for what they need from you, here is what we wish you knew:

1. How you love me is how I will love myself.

2. Ask how I am feeling and listen to my answer, I need to know you value me before I can understand my true value.

3. I learn how I should be treated by how you treat my mom, whether you are married to her or not.

4. If you are angry with me, I feel it even if I don't understand it, so talk to me.

5. Every time you show grace to me or someone else, I learn to trust God a little more.

6. I need to experience your nurturing physical strength, so I learn to trust the physicality of men.

7. Please don't talk about sex like a teenage boy, or I think it's something dirty.

8. When your tone is gentle, I understand what you are saying much better.

9. How you talk about female bodies when you're "just joking" is what I believe about my own.

10. How you handle my heart, is how I will allow it to be handled by others.

11. If you encourage me to find what brings joy, I will always seek it.

12. If you teach me what safe feels like when I'm with you, I will know better how to guard myself from men who are not.

13. Teach me a love of art, science, and nature, and I will learn that intellect matters more than dress size.

14. Let me say exactly what I want even if it's wrong or silly, because I need to know having a strong voice is acceptable to you.

15. When I get older, if you seem afraid of my changing body, I will believe something is wrong with it.

16. If you understand contentment for yourself, so will I.

17. When I ask you to let go, please remain available; I will always come back and need you if you do.

18. If you demonstrate tenderness, I learn to embrace my own vulnerability rather than fear it.

19. When you let me help fix the car and paint the house, I will believe I can do anything a boy can do.

20. When you protect my femininity, I learn everything about me is worthy of protecting.

21. How you treat our dog when you think I'm not watching tells me more about you than does just about anything else.

22. Don't let money be everything, or I learn not to respect it or you.

23. Hug, hold, and kiss me in all the ways a daddy does that are right and good and pure. I need it so much to understand healthy touch.

24. Please don't lie, because I believe what you say.

25. Don't avoid hard conversations, because it makes me believe I'm not worth fighting for.

It's pretty simple, really. Little girls just love their daddies. They each think their daddy hung the moon. Once in a while when you look at your little gal twirling in her frilly skirt, remember she'll be grown one day. What do you want her to know about men, life, herself, love? What you do and say now matters for a lifetime. Daddies, never underestimate the impact of your words or deeds on your daughters, no matter their age.

Words worth sharing from:: https://www.huffpost.com/entry/what-little-girls-wish-daddies-knew_b_4581782?utm_campaign=share_email&ncid=other_email_o63gt2jcad4

..depress me not..

 

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in the depths of despair.

for life hasn't been fair

I find myself in pill after pill..

unnamed, unknown and of my free will.. 

 trying to find sleep.. trying to find peace.. 

i have been there before -- been given new lease.. 

got no tears left.. for all have been spent.. 

been ages since somethings' really meant.

it's just another day.. will go its own way.. 

no mountains to climb.. no paths to lay anew.. 

time goes by now.. seen but by few.. 

feel nothing now - but the pain of you..

 Something's amiss .. quite the abyss.. 

feel wanted no more.. feel needed no more.. 

whatever i fill, the void eats it.. 

back again darkness meets it..

deepest blues

 

deepest blue....


broken up .. lost and found ..
all wound up..
dawn upon.. 
can't break me no more.. 
can't wake me no more.. 

shattered still .. will shine on..
battered still .. will fine on.. 
pride to keep me afloat..
died a little inside..
but fight ..i go on..