nostaligic... or dreaming about things that would have hapenned if i 'd gone to IIML. Have been goin through Gaurav's blog. Actually.. going way back in his blog.. the very inception of it. And it brings back memories and also a bit of hurt, for things not done.
Its been almost four years now. I haven't felt more accomplished since or before that too. The GRE score, the IIML selection, the fellowship from USU. Seems like a dream now. How i wish i could go back to those days and take the path i had evaded. Well, never happens, i guess.
neways, one thing that keeps me going is people i see, people who are going through worser phases in life than i am rite now. And i think, damn, it could have been much worser - phew.. lucky me. hehe. I guess, the attitude is alrite to keep going - but it isn't gonna take me places i wanna b. I gotta change that. But thats chaging what i basically am, and i dont know if i want to do that. I guess i'll eventually, but its a transition i 'll not love making.
Love, is more resposibility and pain than it is fun. Is it worth it??? hmm. i dont know. I am hoping it is. I know for sure, i would be miserable alone. Or atleast, thats what i think i 'll b. neways, lets c where i am goin from here. Hope things work out. Need a job!!!!!!!!!!!
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A traditional Norfolk koan may assist:
Poodle parlour in Purley
A thin man with a toothbrush stuck up his nose
Walks into a poodle parlour in Purley.
The woman behind the counter looks at him.
The thin man with the toothbrush stuck up his nose looks back.
"What can I do for you, sir?" says the woman.
"I'd like to buy an industrial-strength toothbrush-remover, please."
"Show me your poodle."
"I don't run a poodle."
"Do you have a poodle which runs itself?"
"I don't believe in the existence of poodles."
"Then for both business and metaphysical reasons,
I must terminate this conversation."
More may be encountered:
http://alcuinbramerton.blogspot.com/2004/11/traditional-norfolk-koans.html
A traditional Norfolk koan may assist:
Poodle parlour in Purley
A thin man with a toothbrush stuck up his nose
Walks into a poodle parlour in Purley.
The woman behind the counter looks at him.
The thin man with the toothbrush stuck up his nose looks back.
"What can I do for you, sir?" says the woman.
"I'd like to buy an industrial-strength toothbrush-remover, please."
"Show me your poodle."
"I don't run a poodle."
"Do you have a poodle which runs itself?"
"I don't believe in the existence of poodles."
"Then for both business and metaphysical reasons,
I must terminate this conversation."
More may be encountered:
http://alcuinbramerton.blogspot.com/2004/11/traditional-norfolk-koans.html
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